bored and tired. odded out looking back at my last entry. making a haro in ceramics, if it turns out better than expected, i'll see about putting something up. college coming up, not sure about this whole moving forward thing; i don';t make friends easily, and so many are moving away. and i still haven't met a true girlfriend, one who understands i'm eccentric and can get over that fact and not be more damaged than i am. don't know exactly what i want to do with my life, and without some reason to make it better, i can never fully convince myself that i WANT it to be better; why risk falling further if i have nobody to share the payoffs with? anyway, should somebody be cursed with enough free time to have read this far, happy st. patricks day, and i hope this finds you well.

another family member dead, funeral immediately preceeding my birthday,and my friend-girls all getting boyfriends. the other bros and i are sooo far behind girl-wise, and i just hope it's circumstances that do this, and not we ourselves that are causing it. katsucon was fun-ish, though i remember it more for the first insights of what my future may entail, even rooming with friends, realizing that i still don't click with anyone on a emotional level. not humor-wise, that's a side i've got covered, but as for those of like mind, i find myself lacking in a big way, at least excluding those who i find to be rather too chancy to be around for extended periods, on the part of either or the both of us. but who knows, something may be around the corner. anyway, if anyone actually pulled through the second ill-formed paragraph of this bitch-fest, thanks (cathartic), and i hope to hear how you guys've been doing as well.